Understand what it means to have a heartache....

Man it really hurts. It's not just a saying, your heart really will hurt. Just now for a millisecond my heart clenched so tightly I thought I was going to have a heart attack I am not bluffing. But hey I guess I am currently on the high side of my wave so I feel strong and loved now and the feeling just goes away after I tell myself that there is nothing to worry. In fact I don't feel hurt anymore. I feel very safe.I guess this is what love can do to you =)) When you love someone, you fear to lose the person but at the same time you know that you can trust the person. I trust him more than anyone now. Maybe some people will tell me it's stupid and that I'll hurt more if he betrays me but hey, It's my life. It's now or never. But I ain't gonna live forever. I just wanna live (and love) while I'm alive. =))