Guilty?

爱情不能做比较 - 品冠

车子褃收音机空气中还飘著雨
在这个深夜褃你应该在他那褃
有多久没再遇见你
房褃没了你的气息
而我终於仍掉了你给我的所有东西
我刻意填满了生活褃每寸空隙
我知道不容易但我仍试著继续
我还能有怎样的情绪
听说你比从前开心
除了祝福我不想再多说一句
他很好他多好
这些我并不想要知道
再难忘掉多狂烈的拥抱
这回忆他怎麽给得到
他多好和我不同的好
最后是谁不重要
因为我知道爱情不能作比较
我刻意填满了生活褃每寸空隙
我知道不容易但我仍试著继续
听说你比从前开心
我还能有怎样的情绪
除了祝福我不想再多说一句
他很好他多好
这些我并不想要知道
再难忘掉多狂烈的拥抱
这回忆他怎麽给得到
他多好和我不同的好
最后是谁不重要
因为我不要你拿他和我作比较
就算是今天换一个人依靠
明天谁又比谁好
爱看不到听不到怎麽作比较
别再说他很好他多好
这些我并不想要知道
再难忘掉多狂烈的拥抱
这回忆他怎麽给得到
他多好和我不同的好
最后是谁不重要
因为我知道爱情不能作比较
希望你知道爱情不能作比较

Wah seh... am I really guilty of that? Saying that someone else is better? Hmmm the funny thing is... I find the best is always what I have now; doesn't matter what I had before. I must be weird because comparing is one of the most basic reactions of human beings. There are others who think that comparing with something better will cause us to strive for the better. But the difference is, I want to live in the now so I am contented with what I have.

When I love someone, no one else is better than that person. No matter how happy I was in the past, it is the person whom I am with now that stays in my heart and for him to be in my heart means that he is worthy of it and that there is no room for another man inside.

It is difficult to cope with hurt from the past though. Especially when the past has made some habits in me... habits that I can only explain linked to the past. Obviously everyone is curious about each other's past but I feel to look back is basically to see what went right or wrong in the past so that we can make a better future for ourselves; not to compare if our future is better or worse off than the past.

It is tactless to keep talking about past lovers, I know. Guess that topic is for deeper conversations in the future when we are more accustomed and comfortable? Or maybe never at all? I'm a weird one. My past is part of me and I don't want to keep any part of me hidden from my loved one. Should I change my mindset?

GOD! A song dedication is making me think so much.... shows how much he matters to me doesn't it? haha... Not to compare him to someone from my past? Hmmm I can do that. Because basically there is no comparison, the person that I love will always win anyways. And I am only capable of loving one guy at a time. When I say that he is the best, I mean it. I don't say it to compare so that when he is not as good or what instead of saying "you're the best" I say "You're the worst" LOL no... When I do say that you're the best I've ever had, I mean it. Because right there and then no one else is better than you...

My logic is a little topsy turvy even to my own mind... but I don't know how else to say it.... oh man!!!!! haix...