Today I went to the Chinese Tie Da doctor.... my right foot's outer two bones keep getting out of alignment and I am not to do exercise to aggravate it for 1 month.... Means... NO MUAY THAI!!! =((((( This is the saddest shit ever!!! Coupled with the fact that I can't hear, have a horrid cough and stuffed nose!!!

The only good thing that happened today was that Darling Rayray came to take me out. He drove down from home after his reservice to fetch me from school~
We went to Far East to have dinner (chiken rice) and then drove, or rather stressed, our way through the jam to get to the Singapore Flyer =)) Had a coughing fit in the flyer though >.< and Darling decided to take me to the doctor. So we went down to Clementi Ave 3 area to the Q & M 24hr clinic hahaa.... Darling treats me well, taking it as his responsibility =)) And he sure is responsible =))

Saw a senior at Clementi and for awhile I was rather anxious because I wouldn't know if J was going to be there... but... didn't see him and all and Ray was with me all the way so it's cool.

Things were rather quiet today... I really couldn't hear well and so I wasn't exactly in a spectacular mood... Fear and insecurities keep coming into my mind... What if I was boring him? We didn't talk much in the car, nor did we talk much in the flyer... >.< will that make him feel like we do no have common topics? I read somewhere that couples need not stress themselves over a need to have similarities and all because what's important is that they love each other and differences can be fuel to the sparks between them because who would want to stick with someone just like them, it's like dating yourself... LOL But still.... I'm afraid that he finds me boring and in the end... what if I am just another responsibility to him?

I really do love him... these negative thoughts... must be PMS or something... I really hope he doesn't feel that way about me. I really wanna jut accept it when he tells me he loves me... But I'm scared.... what if...? =((

Mel you must be stronger... if you really love him you have to work for it... no point mopping around. Time to fan the flames because in a relationship it takes two hands to clap and two hands to keep the flames between them roaring =))