Hmmmm am I blinded by love AGAIN?? Hmmmm why is it that people are saying stuff that I keep giving excuses for? Maybe their outlook in a relationship is different? Was with PJ and Jesslyn just now. And they found out that Darling went to Genting with Derick... hmmm... PJ said that he's just treating me as someone who is there for him and that takes the back seat?....
It's true that he takes care of his friends. Hell when my girls are crying over break ups I'm there too! I even go down at night just to find them! When my guy friends are down from their problems I arrange drinking sessions and outings for them. True they aren't very close to me so they won't ask me out nightly to chill and all but then again I'd do it for them if I had to. Hmmm in a way, Ray would probably be the bros before hoes typa guy? I can't say this is foreign to me. AJ was like that too (that's where I got the bros before hoes quote from anyways) but the thing is I hung out with the bros... probably because AJ and his bros met mostly in the day or not into the wee hours? Or maybe because my parents were a bit lax at that time? I'd really like to hang out with Ray and his friends though but it might be due to the age gap, they don't appear to be people who like, play lan, mahjong, paintball or do active stuff like in a group? And they always hang out like till morning so.... =(( Saaaaaad..... Wish they could hang out in the day *mumble grumble grumble* LOL
But seriously, I was too childish in the past to see that having individual lives was a healthy thing and I thought too much. Now I've grown and I'm alright with it. PJ asked me if I was sure I wanted something like this when I am still so young. I admit that I like the lovey dovey feeling but then again I told her, I'm happy if things stay this way. If they do deteriorate then... I definitely won't be too happy.... But heyy!! What did I say? I won't think too much eh =))
Hope he'll miss me like he says he would.... Because I miss him much~ >.<
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