Everybody needs a little time away,
I heard her say,
From each other.
Even lovers need a holiday,
Far away from each other.

Yupp it's written in song. It's told to boyfriends to girlfriends and vice versa and it's been awhile for some time. Unlike the song though, time to ourselves should not include disappearing acts but just letting the person have some space and time to themselves. That's not to say ignore the other totally. You can still let people feel they are important when you're having your space.

When I went out with my girls, there was once darling wanted me to update him every 30 mins. Yes he said it in jest but I know he would like it to be done. Thing is he says he doesn't request time alone. But when I do it for him he doesn't appreciate it and say I'm doing it for myself. Well if he didn't want time to himself he wouldn't be so into his friends when he's out with them during the alone time I give him right? What happened to 30min update? Hmmm Kinda unfair in a way. Even when I'm with friends I sms him. When we have a conversation on sms when I'm with friends I take it as more impt and I don't mind having the phone in my hand to reply him... Guess it's different. I have my phone with me all the time unless I'm with him. And when I'm with him I do flip the phone open but it's due to habit. I get scolded for answering calls and all because he doesn't do it. Fine so the other times when my phone is with me and I answer and all doesn't count? I don't scold him for using the phone. In fact when he asks me I am touched with his courtesy but I want him to answer it etc. He sees the times I recieve smses or calls but he doesn't see the other times when I have huge ass numbers of miss calls from parents or friends or tuition kid's mum and all that and I get flak for the times I do pick up the phone?

I don't get it really. Sometimes I feel quite.... hmmmm neglected? But I guess I said I'd give him space. And honestly, we can't expect people to give what you give to them. He does give a lot to me and ya he expects then same back but if I don't give it he's usually fine with it I guess? So I should be too? Hmmmm I don't know. I am using the blog to vent now. If he reads it he's totally going to go angry at me I guess. I'mma gonna steel myself for it. Thing is he's the only one who reads this blog now after I made it private soooooo ya.... I need to vent. And I don't want to vent to you darling so ya don't take it personally and please don't scold me. I don't like this feeling of being scared of what you may do to me for venting in my diary. =)