My miracle

Mέλισσα says:
haha
its ok
i find there are two ways to look at things
yesterday i felt something was wrong
today i found out that he is wavering because he is thinking of how little would be the time we will spend with each other when uni starts
but i feel he's got it wrong
right now
he's affected by the past week we not meeting each other
due to his camp ( we both are)
both of us are now kinda like strangers
so we feel uncomfortable
this feeling thus makes him think of what will happen if we dont meet often in uni
thus i have decided to start the passion ball rolling again
and i can see that he's trying too
this week will be crucial
just now when we talk kinda like rushing through it
more like friends
but its better than nothing
ppl are telling me to quit
but i believe in miracles lor
in this case
i want the miracle to be me and him
and when i want something
when i think, dream about it enough
it comes to me
cos when i think and dream about it if its good it is positive and it'll make me happy and it becomes a vicious cycle
so in the end i'll get my miracle
=))
i dont believe in the pessimistic view anymore
as long as the things haven't happened
all your speculations will be worthless
ppl tell me to get ready for it... for something bad to happen
why should i?
I'd rather use the energy spent on worrying and preparing for the worse, for being positive and looking at how I can improve things so things will be alright again. =))

FRIEND says:
wah..
it is a different u ..
GOOD!

Mέλισσα says:
yupp
and i sure hope he will see it
and even if he doesnt
its no lose of mine
because with a positive outlook in life, good things will come my way =))
its once in awhile
when i sort things out
that i really feel relieved
=)
and sometimes i feel more mature than him
lol
he's having drinking session now
lol
tmw his first class
and he's in hostel
lol
oh wells
yesterday night he didnt reply my good night sms
tonight can see he's trying to make it up to me
he told me to sms him when i'm sleeping and he'll sms me when he is sleeping before me
i choose to look at it as he is really making it uo to me instead of that he is doing it cos he feels its his duty
either way
he's still doing it
so =))
FRIEND says:
haha..
good lah..
at least he is makin up to u mah..
Mέλισσα says:
yupp
so in a way
he's coming back le
ball's in my court now =))
better than him saying oh i'm wavering and not doing anything about it
=))
Mel, be contented and happy and good things will come to you =)) <3