I guess I don't know anymore. Taked to Jerome till 4 plus a today.... talked about maybe His priorities are haywire now and all that because the novelity of His situation now... but... what if it's something else? I can't help being cold towards him now. It's like I feel emptied. Like when you keep distributing water and no one pours additional water in so much so sooner or later the vat runs dry. I feel dry now. You can say dry of love. Think I'll need time to replenish except that.... the person I poured it into doesn't as I think he has more than enough input of it. By the time I recover, he'd probably have another source. This year could have been the best year of my life... I hope it won't be the worst year of my life. We have our own lives... feels so far apart... maybe if he wants it this way... he should tell me... if its just because its my birthday week and he doesn't wanna tell me then I think its just stupid.... but these are speculations... yet again... I hope they're only speculations..
~one day, when you decide to banish the fog in front of you, you will find that what you thought will always be waiting is already gone~
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