I understand that he's busy now.... I'll miss him and all... I just hope he won't forget me when things really kick off. Maybe I'm thinking too much, after hearing various horror stories from my girlfriends about how their men get tired of them after awhile and start to lose temper and not want to spend time with them. Maybe it's the sudden influx of activities? I don't know... I'm scared that he is growing distant from me. I love him so so much and I really don't want to lose him... I don't know what CCA he's going to get into... actually the reasons I joined muay thai as a cca is : 1) It keeps me fit 2) It's competitive even if it's not in the ring 3) It's in school so I don't have to travel far and waste time 4) There are only max two trainings a week so I can spend more time with him... School may not have classes daily plus my cca doesn't take up too much time. What will happen if he has school daily and cca three times a wek along with tuition? I'm so scared to lose him... thoughts that fly through my head are what if he thinks having a girl from his school would be better that they can meet more often? I don't know, I fear having the feeling that now his life is kickstarting, I'll be shoved into a corner... Maybe I'm too sensitive to think it's starting to be like that... I don't know... I don't want to feel that way either.... =(