There is something about me that not many people know about; and even for those who know, not many understand why I do it. I've often been accused of being antagonistic, the firestarter of arguements- I'm not denying these charges. Nope. I agree. I'm very opinionated (if that's even a word) haha... And I like to air my views. If there are views against mine, I believe I have a right, as my opposition does, to voice out my opinions and make it a goal to win the debate. So in many cases I am the bad person, the one starting the fights, the person who doesn't stop, who keeps harping on things etc etc. Yep, I am one horrible person.

However, I also believe in something else. I believe a relationship is a journey of growth between two parties. And to grow, one has to face the storms thrown at them and learn from each other, past mistakes and mistakes that we are still making. I am against the stand that we should just "leave it at that" because leaving something defeated and wounded but not dead is as good as breeding something that will come out again and again, stronger than before. If there is a problem, we better whack it till we totally resolve the problem. It means going at it even if it hurts like hell. At least put a stop to it.

However, there is also another school of thought. I endorse the one above, but my darling endorses this one. This one is the one that says "Ok let's just leave everything at that ok? I don't want to fight anymore I don't want us to hurt anymore". To put it bluntly, it is running away from the problem. I feel that it will help now but in the long run.... BUT then again, I feel now, that one cannot be too stuck in their ideals. It is wrong to keep rushing ahead. We should strike a balance. If we can fight when there is real cause for and stop fighting when it is just something small won't things be much better? Why not be a coward now than evoke a larger problem? =)) I have much to learn from him. And I'm only learning from him because I love him. I hope he can see this. I'mma gonna call him now, just to say sorry =))