Tired

Honestly, I'm tired of going after something that seems to be getting further and further away. Like I said, I don't see the point in putting in so much effort something with such a low success rate. And this thing is also very much based on fate so.... let fate do the work then =)) This is different from so many other things because it involves someone else and that someone else has their own karma, fate, life, feelings, emotions etc... So I can't do this thing alone. It's not like fencing where it's yourself, your sword and the opponent on the piste. It's not like Muay Thai where it's the technique yourself and the opponent in the ring. Nor is it like canoeing where it's you, your physical qualities and the long stretch of water in front of you. I will now put my full focus on Muay Thai because in the long run that is where I want to be, a fighter in the ring with myself, my gloves and the fallen opponent in front of me. =))