People have been saying that I've been lookig angry, acting angsty and being plain dao. Hmmmm I guess? Must be all the Avenged Sevenfold songs that I've been listening to haha... But it must also be because of all the stupid childishness surrounding me now adays. I honestly though things would be more mature but things are still as childish as ever. Everything seems to not be what I thought thay would be. Even when it comes to matters of the heart. I've come against walls and I honestly am tired. I was tired of relationships. Now I'm tired of liking people. And honestly if people in my life are going to treat me like fill-ins for their time and all that then why should I let myself be used? Fine if I am free why not but I won't make myself be or arrange my stuff so that they come first. It's just plain stupid because I live for myself and no other people. I thought I'd have learnt that by now. Well better late than never eh? haha... and honestly if people are going to be hot and cold with me, even as a friend.... who the fuck do you think you are? Expect me to be nice to you all the time? No fucking way. You wanna gimme attitude, be sure to receive double back baby. Maybe its the red wave coming. Forgive my angstiness. But doesn't mean I don't show my displeasure that I'm fine with everything. Nope I ain't. Probably I'm also pissed at myself for letting my attention wander. It should be solidly on Muay Thai and studying yet there I am fretting over people who are warped and pure andmeaningless distractions. GOD!! No more!!!
Going for Nike Human race tmw... PSI better be good mann...