Confused.... or rather, at a loss.

To, or not to? Am I wrong to feel for him? And why do I feel this way about him? I don't know why this attraction came. I do know that the first time I saw him, I did notice him but there was not really an attraction. In fact at first glance he looked alright but after that initial reaction, I didn't find him attractive. I do know when it started though, perhaps about 3-4 weeks back or so? The suddenly closeness or the sudden getting to know him got to me. At that moment, there was this rush, this feeling that I would like to be with this person, that this scene would be what I wanted were I to be together with this person. I've had this feeling once before, for a short while. But this feeling for this current guy is rather overwhelming. The rush of feeling I feel makes me feel dizzy and it's the typical dizziness associated with romance, something that I haven't felt in quite some time now. I have felt fear when it comes to relationships but this is different from the fear I've felt the past few months when I was in a relationship. This is not the fear of the person, this is the fear and anxiousness you feel when you really want a particular someone and you're scared that by you feeling this way you will lose them. I feel like a girl again. I feel free and young, something that I wasn't able or allowed to feel for a long time. I am ready to move forward now I feel. I have put him behind me. But this person in front of me.... it's like the crush I had long ago all over again.... I want to tell him, yet after experiencing a lot of things I am thinking of far too much. I do know what I have to do, yet my impulsiveness clashes with my anxiousness. What do I want to achieve by telling him? To get it off my chest? To see if there is a chance between us? Suddenly I know what a proper relationship should be like now and I have a feeling that he would share my sentiments on this issue as well. However, I am not sure and thus I am scared.... For once I think I shall break away from my character because I know that this particular part of my character, my impulsiveness, has caused me to act unwisely before. This time round I want to do things right. I will tread carefully. I hope that what happens in the end will be what I am hoping for..