Quiet night

Hey Blog. Am currently writing to you because.... well because I'm not talking to J. We used to talk everynight before bed well tonight is different. I guess he is tired and all.... ah wells... nothing to worry about. Just hope it ain't going to be like this from now on.... like what happened before eh. Doesn't really matter though... I should be understanding la.... he's tired and all.... found it weird that he didn't reply my sms.... and when I called him and heard him speak like he just got up.... I couldn't bear to speak into the phone. And I told him I'm going to sleep soon and he just asked if I didn't want to talk and all that and after that just said goodnight and bye. Guess I smsed him later to sound out if he was thinking of talking but oh wells... he's obviously sleeping? Nah.... won't feel too bad.... today alone.... we fought again... over A level results...like I guess its my fault that I felt inferior and all that but I just didn't want to say it and after that when I cooled down he got sad that I still didn't tell him whats wrong and under the pressing I couldn't stand it and burst out at him. True he told me not to go and all and I appreciate it.... after that I tried to be jovial again and ya we did gym. I guess all was sweet until now? Ya we do fight but we always end it nicely... but tonight I'm just faced with silence and yupp I have to accept it and yupp I guess when I wake up tomorrow I won't feel bad? After all, better to not talk than talk and he falling asleep on me and I get even more angry right?