Is it my own doing?

I do not know what else to think. I shouldn't have taken it to heart... it is after all just a gift... but such a gift... that I had given and he given away. But it's just a gift. It was all the worse when he said that he had tried but still he had disappointed me... He said sorry (didn't stay to comfort but did apologise)... but I rather he said sorry and said that he still loved me and that he was sorry for this and it wouldn't happen again. Silence on the other end of the phone was more frightening than a banshee's shriek. The silence can cut like a knife and can plunge into the heart far better than any dagger can. Silence and saying that there is nothing left to say... what does it mean? That one does not care, nor take this matter to heart for the person to find anything to say? Or what? Maybe I was too impatient and too fast to acknowledge change. Unsure? I am not unsure of us... I am more unsure of how I ca go about supporting him. If he sets his mind to change for the better (like he promised) I will be there. If he doesn't, I shall accept. I guess all I need from him now is his assurance of his love. But maybe I have assured people of my love for them so many times they find no need to assure me of them feeling love for me? Do I appear so strong on the outside?