I've finally made up my mind. And I really don't think I'll be regreting it =)) I'm in love. Fast you will say, given that I've just officially broken up roughly a week ago. I guess the Beyonce song Irreplacable really echoes my life now. But then again, this love has been lying hot and burning in the first years to being latent recently because of my relationship with someone else. It has never really gone away. It's just that when I'm with someone, he's my everything and I'll be able to shut out any other feelings I have for anyone else.
I only told my new love that I had feelings for him, only dared to do so, after I was already attached so there was really nothing that either of us could do. Yet here he was, for me, when I broke up, when my heart ached the most. There he was, his arms open, comforting me as I cried the last tears I ever plan to shed for my ex. I mean, what can a guy do when a girl cries? Especially when she is crying over another guy? i find that with him there are no boundaries. I do not fear how he might react and seek to cover up my feelings; there is no suspicion and fear that he may be unfaithful; for once, I am able to trust a guy wholeheartedly. And that just feels really nice =))
Lord thank you for not giving me the courage long ago because if you did whatever that is happening now would never have happened. In the end, you did have your plans to see that I will be happy. Thank you for taking all my cries that you have deserted me. You never did and I'll always be grateful for it =))
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