Haha... spent my New Year's Eve with Darling and Derick at some techno tiu at No. 69 Circular road LOL... Hmmmm it was not bad indeed!! At first I was thinking of just going there to be entertained by Darling and Derick hahaha... And Darling didn't fail to impress =)) So proud of him!! He was the first guy to start dancing, albeit dancing real techno steps not definitely NOT bobbing LOL... And believe me when I say Darling was uber UBER cool~! Apparently coming from Derick it seems like he practices by himself as it's been some time since they last went to Sparks or any techno event =))
Derick started doing catcalls and all and it was fun to hear the crowd join in LOL... now I know why SRJC's house cheers have thse catcalls LOL a hell lot of Ah Bengs go to SRJC and a hell lot of them go to places like Sparks hahahaha =))
Yepp was sitting down there watching the guys enjoy themselves, and learning how Ah Lians dance by looking like Jiang Shi and jerking to and fro like they were being electrocuted by a loose wire haha... Had a drink on the house as well as like 2 jugs of beer and finally started dancing with the guys. I guess I was a teeny bit uncomfortable at the start... after all it's not my territory and the music is not the usual music I dance to at the clubs. But darling and Derick just told me Techno was like Mambo in a way just less rigid so I just followed them lor... it's not as difficult as Mambo where EVERY word has a fixed meaning LOL so we just danced! =))
I seriously feel like I've become older.... alright... more mature... LOL... There was this one part of the night where two girls slipped over some vomit at our old table which we moved away from. Darling was the gentleman as usual went to help them. At first I was like -.- was that even your business?? But then I realised that ah wells he's just like that what... When I first met him he was already rather gentlemanly, walking where traffic was directing and asking me to walk inside instead of outside nearer the vehicles... so I guess this is him, part of the charm that he has LOL!! I REFUSE to get jealous over that!! LOL But I will not doubt that that thought did slip into my mind. Think I told Darling before, I will get jealous, I think it's normal to get jealous and if that person really matters to you you will get jealous one way or another. But the only difference is whether I let jealousy get to me and I blow up the matter. Currently I find nothing or no need to blow up anything. It would have been different in the past that's why I say I think I've become more mature... either that or more understanding bah, after all you can't keep the person you love looked up in a box now can you?? I sure as hell wouldn't like that as well. Probably there is a soft nagging fear that he may treat me like how he treats any other girl and vice versa but as of now I don't think that particular fear has any grounds as though yes it's true that sometimes when we're out with friends he doesn't hold my hand, I must stress on the word SOMETIMES because he DOES do so.
Thing about him is sometimes he's hot then a bit cold then hot again then coldish again LOL... Today we went Kbox. There was a small incident when he gave me a look when I picked a song... a rather condescending look. I hate it when people give me attitude like that... LOL still remember a time when we were at Macs when I first met his friends and I was talking about some acronym and he suddenly said "shut the fuck up" (later he explained it was because the acronym sounded like STFU) that got me a teeny bit pissed LOL and this condescending look did give have the same effect on me so I deleted the song. I guess he knew something wasn't right because after a smoke he wanted to put the song back on but ah wells... wasn't that happy with stuff so he did it himself and in the end he sang with his friend. Hmmm I tend to try to look at things from his perspective bah... it was awesome that he bothered to try to soothe the situation <3 LOL the Mel from before would have had a black face all night but nah... what for?? Just enjoy myself bah~
Lol one part was when we were walking out of the Kbox and I told him "I love you darling" and he threw back a "Me too" LOL!! SO CURT!!! ARGGGHHH!!! Heehee but at least he got respond la!!
There were also times when they went for smoke and all that and I was either left alone or with on of his friends lol... but in the end I rationalized that heyy I appreciate it that we're not tied to the waist and neither do I wanna be some needy girlfriend who can't even breathe without her boyfriend next to her... that would stress the guy out too I would gather haha. He did stay with me on one occasion which was so sweet of him =)) (yes I did ask him to go out with his friends for a smoke but he didn't leave heehee)
It's little things he does that make whatever unhappiness go away. I can be unhappy about something but he will do something else to make me feel all better even if he does it subconciously.
School is starting and I won't be seeing him much... I already feel like I miss him. Hahahaa... But I really want to get to know him better. This one month plus... in the beginning we didn't see each other much so I felt like I barely knew my own boyfriend but in these two holiday weeks I think seeing him this much made me understand better who he is. Satisfied with my knowledge for now and I'm looking forward to the new year with my Darling =)) Everytime I see him I see something new =)) and everytime I see him I know I love him more. I hope it's the same for him too... <3
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