For the best

Today Ray and I broke up... He came to school to pick me up... yes he was late and all but he came... and we went to Coronation's Starbucks. And I bought him a Mocha and I got a Ice green tea latte. And I just asked if he thought we'd be better off as friends. You can easily see he had been thinking of it and he agreed. Sparing the details... we sat there and then moved upstairs and talked =)) Never felt so carefree with him... And then we went Xin Wang for his lunch of curry and rice haha... don't mind paying for him though... I'm just happy things ended on a good note... and we were there changing out statuses hahaha just like a reversal of what we did when we got together =)) Alls well that ends well I guess. He drove me to Boon Lay to meet a friend after that. =)) I'm happy that he and I are alright =)) I don't expect to be close to him but I know that I am happy I didn't lose him as a friend~

There will always be a part of me who will love him and remember him.

Good Bye Rayray darling~

Muay Thai IIX

Today we did lots of knees. The process is like so: bounce on your back foot by putting your body weight on the back leg and bouncing back up again. The front leg will bend accordingly. Next, push the hip backward (tilt the butt out) as you sit into the back leg and bounce back up again. Next bring the back leg up and align the knee, pelvic region and back in a straight line. Hit the opponent and use the hit to bounce back to starting position. Do not forget to be on the ball of your supporting leg's foot.

We did this stationarily as well as moving around. It was good!! =)) My kneeing technique is not bad if I may say so myself =))

The last Muay Thai Training we did hooks. The thing to note is that the elbows should be from start position and moving forwards not tilting sideways. Bring it out and twist your waist, putting your arm at a 45 degree angle, using the last two knuckles to graze the opponent's cheek.

Today we did grappling as well. I used Chin's technique of stepping forward and twisting as well as Lai's method of stepping back and twisting toward the hind leg =))

Hilltop Gym Muay Thai Event and Caiying's Birthday Party

Yesterday, Sunday.

Went down to SMU to support Yan Ren, Dillon, Jason and Leroy for their Muay Thai matches. Went in just in time to see Dillon being pummelled by an opponent. I only realised after that that it was Jerome Tong. I haven't been up for training much recently, no morale... but when I saw that it was Tong who pummelled Dillon.... DAMN I WAS SO PISSED!!! I should have gone earlier!!! Could have told Dillon that BULL's weaknesses!!! DAMMIT!!! I swear revenge for SIM!! Gonna start training hard to be a fighter and hopefully I will be able to enter a competition at the end of the year... The four months holidays will be jammed with MUAY THAI, earning MOOLA and of course spending whatever time Darling can spare for me with him la!

Had a slight quarrel with Darling >.< I compared him to Tong and it felt like he was threatening me... but hey, we both know what each of us can't stand so.... things should be better. Went over to his place to watch High School Of The Dead Anime LOL!!!
Met darling's mom for the first time!! She's such a nice lady!!! =)) Heehee~!

Left after that for Caiying's Birthday and was kinda late but she waited for me to cut the cake!! So Sweet Right??? =)) After that Went with Her, Baba, and two of her friends for after party. Wanted to take her to Brewerks but it was replaced by the Caravan or something so we went to 6th Ave for drinks at Harry's bar. We got a bucket of five and one of the guys challenged me to put our hands into the cold water for the longest. LOL it hurt la but MUST WIN!!! So I held it there until Caiying told us to stop and I tricked him so that he took his hand out first muahahaha If you can't win physically, win MENTALLY wahahahaha...

We got Caiying a Flaming Lambo and after that played some games. I was suprising ly sober probably because I was being challenged RAWR!! LOL but the night ended as Caiying puked on the floor LOL... hit me a bit but ah wells... it was swell =))

Darling smsed me to ask why I wasn't home yet. The sweet boy is so cute la, still apologise for sounding naggy and telling me he's concerned!! MUACKS!! Can't get enough of him haha~ <3

2nd Monthsary

Today was our second month being together~ Haven't seen darling all week!!! Woke him up at 2pm and he came to fetch me from school. Poor darling got into a minor accident =(( Some car banged his car from the back in the jam; his bumber is dented and the boot couldn't be locked. Went to his old work place to have the lock fixed then went to look for IDAC which couldn't help us -.-...

After that we went to Cineleisure for a movie. Darling wanted to watch Gulliver's Travels but there were no more timings so we watched Centurion LOL... Well I did buy a pair of white shoes and threw away my old ones too =P heehee...

Darling got me Lavander Potpourri =)) Gonna use it in my room... <3

We went to look for Derick after the movie and Darling helped him to do sticking of a scooter's parts. Stayed there till 1230 and Darling sent me home...

School starts

Have to pass up the stupid examination fees tomorrow.... think I'll be going down with Qing Merv PJ and her Jonasto RELC. The stupid examination fees are like $2098 LIKE WTF!!! Hmmmm gotta start studying already... body clock is still adjusting somewhat hahaaa....

This Chinese New Years comes real early.... Feb 3... man it's like in 3 weeks or so?? But at least it doesn't touch Valentine's day eh hahaha... Don't know if I'll be having a party at my place on CNY but should be and frends will come to gamble just like last year. Hoping to go out for MahJong during that period too!! Kinda miss it hahahaha haven't touched tiles in like forever; NOT that I'm good at it LOL will have to wear lucky red underwear then hahahahaa

New Year's Eve + Kbox today + Thoughts on my awesome darling whom I love v v much~

Haha... spent my New Year's Eve with Darling and Derick at some techno tiu at No. 69 Circular road LOL... Hmmmm it was not bad indeed!! At first I was thinking of just going there to be entertained by Darling and Derick hahaha... And Darling didn't fail to impress =)) So proud of him!! He was the first guy to start dancing, albeit dancing real techno steps not definitely NOT bobbing LOL... And believe me when I say Darling was uber UBER cool~! Apparently coming from Derick it seems like he practices by himself as it's been some time since they last went to Sparks or any techno event =))

Derick started doing catcalls and all and it was fun to hear the crowd join in LOL... now I know why SRJC's house cheers have thse catcalls LOL a hell lot of Ah Bengs go to SRJC and a hell lot of them go to places like Sparks hahahaha =))

Yepp was sitting down there watching the guys enjoy themselves, and learning how Ah Lians dance by looking like Jiang Shi and jerking to and fro like they were being electrocuted by a loose wire haha... Had a drink on the house as well as like 2 jugs of beer and finally started dancing with the guys. I guess I was a teeny bit uncomfortable at the start... after all it's not my territory and the music is not the usual music I dance to at the clubs. But darling and Derick just told me Techno was like Mambo in a way just less rigid so I just followed them lor... it's not as difficult as Mambo where EVERY word has a fixed meaning LOL so we just danced! =))

I seriously feel like I've become older.... alright... more mature... LOL... There was this one part of the night where two girls slipped over some vomit at our old table which we moved away from. Darling was the gentleman as usual went to help them. At first I was like -.- was that even your business?? But then I realised that ah wells he's just like that what... When I first met him he was already rather gentlemanly, walking where traffic was directing and asking me to walk inside instead of outside nearer the vehicles... so I guess this is him, part of the charm that he has LOL!! I REFUSE to get jealous over that!! LOL But I will not doubt that that thought did slip into my mind. Think I told Darling before, I will get jealous, I think it's normal to get jealous and if that person really matters to you you will get jealous one way or another. But the only difference is whether I let jealousy get to me and I blow up the matter. Currently I find nothing or no need to blow up anything. It would have been different in the past that's why I say I think I've become more mature... either that or more understanding bah, after all you can't keep the person you love looked up in a box now can you?? I sure as hell wouldn't like that as well. Probably there is a soft nagging fear that he may treat me like how he treats any other girl and vice versa but as of now I don't think that particular fear has any grounds as though yes it's true that sometimes when we're out with friends he doesn't hold my hand, I must stress on the word SOMETIMES because he DOES do so.

Thing about him is sometimes he's hot then a bit cold then hot again then coldish again LOL... Today we went Kbox. There was a small incident when he gave me a look when I picked a song... a rather condescending look. I hate it when people give me attitude like that... LOL still remember a time when we were at Macs when I first met his friends and I was talking about some acronym and he suddenly said "shut the fuck up" (later he explained it was because the acronym sounded like STFU) that got me a teeny bit pissed LOL and this condescending look did give have the same effect on me so I deleted the song. I guess he knew something wasn't right because after a smoke he wanted to put the song back on but ah wells... wasn't that happy with stuff so he did it himself and in the end he sang with his friend. Hmmm I tend to try to look at things from his perspective bah... it was awesome that he bothered to try to soothe the situation <3 LOL the Mel from before would have had a black face all night but nah... what for?? Just enjoy myself bah~
Lol one part was when we were walking out of the Kbox and I told him "I love you darling" and he threw back a "Me too" LOL!! SO CURT!!! ARGGGHHH!!! Heehee but at least he got respond la!!
There were also times when they went for smoke and all that and I was either left alone or with on of his friends lol... but in the end I rationalized that heyy I appreciate it that we're not tied to the waist and neither do I wanna be some needy girlfriend who can't even breathe without her boyfriend next to her... that would stress the guy out too I would gather haha. He did stay with me on one occasion which was so sweet of him =)) (yes I did ask him to go out with his friends for a smoke but he didn't leave heehee)

It's little things he does that make whatever unhappiness go away. I can be unhappy about something but he will do something else to make me feel all better even if he does it subconciously.

School is starting and I won't be seeing him much... I already feel like I miss him. Hahahaa... But I really want to get to know him better. This one month plus... in the beginning we didn't see each other much so I felt like I barely knew my own boyfriend but in these two holiday weeks I think seeing him this much made me understand better who he is. Satisfied with my knowledge for now and I'm looking forward to the new year with my Darling =)) Everytime I see him I see something new =)) and everytime I see him I know I love him more. I hope it's the same for him too... <3