Have you guys ever bumped into someone so stuck up, arrogant, know-it-all and so.... egoistic that many people in their lives can't stand them? I have. In fact, I am drawn to people like that. Not really. I am drawn to guys with pride. I like it when a guy is sure of himself and knows how to tell people that he knows what he is doing; smart guys are a plus because they can back up their pride with their smarts.
Thing is, you can be smart, you can be strong and you can be so good in something that it warrants you to be proud, but there is a fine, very very fine line, between pround and cocky/arrogant/MCP/just a plain ol' assh*le.
Disclaimer: I am NOT talking about any ONE person in particular. I just have this group of guys in my life who are like so and I want to blog about it.
I think guys with ego are sexy. Probably because my dad is rather egoistic. But he is something like the sort of guy that that described above. He always thinks he's right, you're wrong. He always responds but saying "No" first and then chooses if he wants to correct himself through the conversation. And it downright irks me. Think is my family is rather close so like they say, girls are influenced by their daddys to choose the type of guys they fall for and boy, the more I fall for guys, the closer to the characteristics of my dad do they seem to get.
NOT a good thing.
Thing with me is, I'm a virgo. No not the typical traditional and conservative virginal maiden, no. I'm a virgo when they say that virgos give a lot in a relationship and try to make the relationship into their own brand of perfection. While some people do so by seeking to change their guy/girl, I understand that I cannot change people and the only person I can change is myself. So I change myself. When I fall for a guy with ego, I've learnt to be extra accomodating to them, take their shit and egoisticism (if there is such a word) and boost their ego for them like a good ol' sounthern wifey-poo fawning over her husband. BLEAH!
I do that if I like you. If you're my friend I do that too because I treat you like my friend and I care for you. But the thing with me is, I can tolerate nonsense, but only to that extent. Once you reach the line and crosee it, boy, you expect me to continue taking shit from you?? Oh no you don't.
For those who have read my blog, or know me, they know I have something called the trigger point. And once the trigger is pulled, it's sayonara baby! You're not going to be treated the same by me ever again. I may be nice to you again, but don't take that as my default setting when I see you because it ain't. When I've had enough, it's enough. When in the past I can sit there and take shit, once the trigger is pulled, I can choose to stand up and leave anytime I want.
So yes, I can stroke your ego, I can make it swell. But know this, I only do so when I like you or when you're WORTHY of me to do so. It's NOT my default character to take things lying down. So when I am stroking your ego and being nice, don't push me to stop doing so and become the bitch that I can be.
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