Teenage Angst

I wrote this awhile back when I was having problems with my parents. My views may have shifted since than but they are still valid for many teens out there.

All Parents damage their kids; one way or another. They can damage in the form of physical abuse and also emotional abuse; and the thing is, most parents never ever think that they are in the wrong. Maybe it’s the Asian way where by the elders are always right and they are usually too proud to ever acknowledge that they are wrong. But then again I seldom hear of parents apologising to their kids.

To me, emotional abuse is much worse than physical abuse. Maybe it’s because I’ve never been physically abused and all, unlike the Child Called It, but I sure as hell have been emotionally abused. Every. Single. Day. There is not one day of rest in this turmoil that I go through. My folks hurl abuse like they are hurling snowballs in a snow fight. They say stuff like I’m worse than a dog, they do not understand why they have a daughter like me, why can’t I be like so-and-so, you’re worse than a boy (because I didn’t help out much, in their eyes, in the house moving... like what????), bloody hell, you can go to hell, etc etc.

Alright, this may not be the worse but you get my drift. Imagine having needles poked into you every day. Accumulated, it hurts. Some of the stuff they say are in mandarin and the meaning is hard to put across so I’ll skip those. But hey, think about it, you have enemies outside who call you all the shit that they can. You come home, and you hear the same shit from people who swear they “are the ones who love you the most in the world.” Doesn’t make sense to me. I know some people might say they do this for your own good but come on people, deep down you know it’s for your own good but come take this every single day and tell me if you won’t hate them enough to forget that it’s for your own good and want to take a cleaver and slice them into two. Many small things build up to become one huge problem.

So..... please do think before you act parents. And to those who are gonna be parents, I guess we will have to remember that kids are human and they grow and they have the same capacity to love, or hate, as we do. You don’t want to be hated by the people whom you claim to love the most in the world, jolly well think before you say or do any shit.