Recently

Hey people. Things have been going fairly crazy recently and I think a few of you know what I mean. Really glad you guys are here for me; including Darl of course... Don't really know what to write. I am emotionally depleted. Kinda being scared of being dropped after all the promises and all that haha but oh wells you people are sure going out of your way to get me prepared for it I guess haha I don't know... guess these three are my favourites now.... and also "I hope people are NOT BLIND" hahaha Random random random

My new Fav Song- Roses and Butterflies by Making April

I can see where you are
I can tell you're enjoying it so far
I would love to escape, but now I'm bound
By the of burn of your eyes
Looking on as I'm starting to realize
I'm a pawn in your game and this is checkmate

As the roses lift their heads to catch a glimpse of my demise
You'll be throwing lies around like ocean waves throw down the tides
And they are breaking on my shore
And the rescue team won't save me now I'm out too far

So I'll waste these nights for a while
But I'll be holding onto you forever
And this is where my heart is cold and torn
As I read the words you wrote last night
The butterflies are creeping through my spine

It's a thrill I can't shake
Yeah I know we've been writing a mistake
But it's hard to erase the feelings I've drawn
I was caught in an awkward silence
Broken down by the sound of your prelude that you played
To open our symphony
I've been sleeping with the sunrise watching hours pass away
Incidentally I'm just waiting for the dusk to kill the day
But now I'm waiting for your call
While I bang on this piano like you care at all

So I'll waste these nights for a while
But I'll be holding onto you forever
And this is where my heart is cold and torn
As I hear the words you're saying tonight
I'm falling for them every single time

As the roses dip their heads a little further to the ground
There's a season change and all the pinks and whites have turned to brown
Will we make it through the fall
Yeah are we gonna make it through this fall
'Cause I don't wanna fall with you

So I'll wastes these nights for a while
(I'm trying)
But I'll be holding on to you forever
(We're dying, yeahhh)
And this is where my heart is cold and torn
I'm taken by your hope-filled lines
They're well designed and dragging me along
I'll be waiting for this chance and I'll be gone




I'm a crazy person who likes songs more for their lyrics than anything haha... I find the lyrics here very meaningful. It truely expresses the felings of many people who've been in love. Let's hope I don't have to sing this song too eh? Haha... But seriously, it's UBER sad =(

The Rising Sun Of Another Day

You'll never see it,
The Red, fiery Sun,
The way you'll see it with
Those same eyes,
Which will too, never see
The grass dancing in the breeze.

While everyone else
Puts the blame on the one
Who is the most obvious,
There is hope that you,
The only one who really matters,
Can understand the predicament.

Seeing the red, fiery Sun
Will not aid your hungry
Little stomach, nor will
The dance of the grass,
Provide you the warmth,
Which is stolen by the wind
Which ironically gives them motion.

All that can be promised,
Is that prayers will be offered.
That an angel will come
And shower you with the warmth
And joy that you
Have missed out on.

But for now,
All that can be promised for you,
Is the Rising Sun,
Of another day.

Strength

How do we measure
Strength?
A yard stick, ruler,
Scales, by the buckets?
Or can we see it with
Our eyes and even then,
Will we be able to attain
The full measure of it;
Strength?

What determines
Strength?
How we lift burdens,
Charge through obstacles?
Or is it shown in
Our love for others,
Which most of the time
Cannot be seen; this
Strength?

When we ask,
Are we strong?
When others say,
You are strong,
We should ask,
How do you know?
We should say,
Especially when I know
I have not the
Strength.

Botanic Gardens - Evolution Garden

On Thursday 17/9/09, Darl and I went to the Botanic Gardens hahahaa..... he came down straight from school to meet me at Creamery. PJ, Merv Man and Jake were nice enough to come wait with me for an hour there abouts until Darling came. Hhahaha actually we met Darl as he was crossing the road at the junction and PJ mentioned that he was dao? hahahahaa ah wells... =)) so we went down to Burger Shack for lunch =)) (as I was thinking of it and Merv had said it was a nice place. We had originally wanted to go down to Adam Road Food Centre). I had a spring chicken with peach and apple salad with rice and Darling had the tallest burger, the Blue Mountain burger? hhahaha students had 25% discount and yep the food there was not bad not bad. Haha.... we were so full so we skipped ice cream and went to Cold Storage to get some drinks. We eneded up getting a Carlsberg and Anchor and we headed down to the botanic gardens via Cluny Road. We had been to this side of the gardens before but it was at night and now I'd found out about the other side which was where I went for my picnic with my parents only recently. So we read and followed the signs to the Evolution Gardens and nicee nicee was it there haha... we later went to the Garden Stars (Eco Garden) and sat there and hung out drinking our beer. Mann it was a nicee nicee place la!! the foot path was made of used plastic bottles filled with pebbles la!! hahaha after that we went for a walk in the Evo Garden before we left for darling had Soccer and I was heading home hahahaha =)) had fun =))

Luncheon somewhere at Macpherson haha

Woots today was uber fun in a sense haha.... PJ, Merv and I so didn't know where to et and we just boarded the bus 151 and were assuming to go to Hougang Ctrl to have our lunch. However, on the way there we changed our mind 'cause there really is nothing to eat at Hougang hahahahha so we were thinking where to drop off for lunch and all that and guess what we passed by the Macpherson area and saw lotsa coffee shops with rather appetising food and we decided to just alight. We went for a tour around the alleys there to see exactly what they had and the prawn noodle (River South Prawn Noodles) caught our eyes probably because of the long queue and because it looked good =P but we carried on our tour 'cause we wanted to see what else there was. We ended up at the provision shop, both of them having Potong Ice Cream and I having a Crunch Ice cream hahaha we walked pass the Bengawan Solo there and hahaha we bought Kuehs and Ondeh Ondeh haha. I got 3 and each of them got 2 kuehs and boy were we full but our craving for Prawn Noodles were not satisfied so we went over and Merv go us one soup Choo mee fen, and one dry kway teow. Boy it was good.,... truely orgasmicaLLY good.... hahahaaa. After which we went to the 7-11 to get some drinks. I had initially wanted to buy an Ancor beer but in the end Merv and I settled for two bols of H-Two-O hahahaahahhaa it was so fun la.... what an adventure =)) Oh btw I fell down once out side on the steps LOL and my beautiful Charles and Keith shoes have been ruined.Oh wells all is worthwhile in the name of adventure =)))

Let's talk about trust and trying

What on earth is trust? I'll tell you what trust is- It's the most important thing you can give the person you love. Many a times, factors put doubt into our heads and yeah yeah you'd be like "Pbbbft easier said than done mate!" But hey, if you're going to live a life where you can't give even a rat shit's worth of trust then it's sayonara baby... hahaha then again one does have to admit it IS difficult at times but hey we all try =)) Which brings we to the other topic of trying. I for one am NOT a fan of trying.... uh-uh not at all. I believe in DOING!!! Thus I am really very grateful to people when they actually put their heart into it even when they say they're trying. =)) when someone says they try, I get the feeling that omg whatever they do s out of pure wanting to try and no because they actually want to do it so much so that you actually can't when the person IS ACTUALLY DOING SOMETHING ABOUT IT. You get so scared that you block it off. Then when the person doesn't feel like what he or she is doing is being appreciated, they lock up and stop doing/trying and you'll be left with the self- fulfilling prophecy of "hey they were actually doing it purely for doing it and now they've stopped". I want to get rid of this mentality because it's not doing anyone any good.

Thus I have come to appreciate and accept the things that are being done for me. All of them put a smile on my face and when they are absent I try to keep the frowns at bay. I hope what I'm doing is right eh?

~Really needing a hug~

Unobserved

For-granted, we've taken, many
Many things. It could be-
A word, a look, a smile, a
Kiss, and maybe the slightest frown.
Many atimes, they are left
Unobserved, unfelt, un-
Appreciated- until one day
When we look back, look
At our old photographs,
We see those actions, words
Replayed so vividly as if
They were next to us again.
And either regret, or a
Sweet smile shall spread over
The faces, yours and theirs.
But by then, will any of
The expressions be, left
Unobserved?

Check out this poem. What do you think? haha Not much with the techniques but does it manage to carry a point across and if so... what point? =)) VIEWS PLEASE

Out out out =))

Yesterday met Darl after his tuition haha waited 3 hrs there abouts for him after my own tuition and spent most of it looking through my econs stuff at Macs =))We could only meet for awhile but seeing him was so worth it =)) The nihtbefore we had a sort talk on MSN (yes yes impersonal but....) and I found out that the reason for him not saying I Love You to me was because he was still in a Limbo about things. But yes I DO see him trying really =)) and yes last night, the 3 words came out from his mouth and I felt like he meant them =)) Haven't been so happy for a period of time =))

Today went out with him after his tuition for the movie 9 at 1605 at Cine =)) Darl rushed down from his tuition just in time =))) After that we walked over to Plaza sing to meet Qing, Ali and her friend for the movie Gamer and boy were both movie good =)) hahhaa after the movie, we went to the various figurine stores upstairs for a looksee at the figurines. Darl had to go back to hostel earlier though because of his Hall recruitment for positions =)) Darling promised me yesterday that today will not be like yesterday when he spent muc time on his phone and yes he did keep his promise =)) <3 when we were heading back though I was quite sad that I didn't spend really much time with him but hey I was contented. =)) the topic of jealousy did crop up though because he does message this girl a hell lot and a hell lot more than me. I just felt I should let him know I guess and it was a fleeting feeling... he told me there was nothing going on between them and yes I believe him though I can't say I believe in that girl but hey, I know Darling will not disappoint and I really trust him =)) Oh wells, hope he knows how much he means to me... =)) and I believe he does =)) so for now it's smile smile and more smiles because I have him in my life and he said that He'll always be here for me =)) I will believe that =))

~I love and therefore I believe~

BIRTHDAY

On Thursday, 3rd Sept Darling brought me out fo my early birthday =)) we went to catch a movie Year One after lunching at Astons at The Grand Cathay. We had dinner at the Meridian, Korean of course, then we got some Anchor and sweets and headed down to the Marina Barrage. Serious people it's an amazing place to go =)) Loved it there. It was the 15th of the lunar calander for the seventh month too so the moon was perfectly round and the orange orb slowly emerged from its cloud cover- beautiful. Took some pictures that I'm going to upload soon =)) well apparently both of us went 'Club Marc' fashion on that day haha... after that we went for the 955 bus back to the MRT and at the busstop we ran into this Jap guy asking for Taxi number hahahha weird and all too bad our Jap vocab sucked too much to help him out much haha... according to Darl that was part one of my birthday and part two is today when he gave me a white and yellow gold necklace... =)))) sad to say I was too sleepy and didn't take a good look at it only when i was going home did I appreciate it fully =)) sorry for not looking too enthu at first hahahahaa but hey I'm NEVER taking it off haha =))

Well yesterday, 19 people from OG19 came to celebrate my birthday with me at Timbre Art House =)) The number one bday with friends ever haha... we played and sang witht the live band there and they made me very high hahahahah LOVE U GUYS haha I got a guess watch (a red one, my fav color), a guess wallet and my Forever21 top that I wanted so badly hahahaa =)) later, PJ Elaine Gwen Yuan Fu MinXinag Josh Jake and Melvyn went to Zouk with me and partied till 4 plus haha... we down probably 6 jugs of vodka and I had 1 1/2 Flaming Lambos hahaha after which I had a Brandy and... God knows what haghahhaahha it was cool and Fun.... will always remember my 19th thanks to all you lovely people =))