Hahaha Just came back from the chalet, 4 days 3 nights wooots and I thought I might not be able to stay mann.... On my side it was known as my Business course camp and I got a hell lot of scolding from my parents because they did not think camps lasted so long. Dad also thought I was telling him a half truth about how the camp will be open till Fri morning cos of the bash on Thurs night. Mann cried before I left the house but heck. Sure had fun at AJ's. Really liked the freedom and life there. Honestly I think I can live comfortably without my parents albiet I must have the cash flow. Haha.... Didn't get drunk thought we tried a lil bit of spray hahaha really it was fun fun fun =)) Loved spending the days with AJ and gang really. =)))
ANd that day I got his present... actually rushed down right after my driving to get it. Then I forgot to bring it to the party and now I am the last one to give him my present. SOmehow he acts like he doesn't care. Haha oh wells, I don't really know what to think now. You tell me....
Friday, 31 July 2009
Monday, 27 July 2009
Nice song: Should I stay or Should I go
SHOULD I STAY OR SHOULD I GO
Oh yeeeeeaaaaah
Wooh!
Darling you got to let me know
Should I stay or should I go?
If you say that you are mine
I’ll be here ’til the end of time
So you got to let me know
Should I stay or should I go?
Always tease tease tease
You’re happy when I’m on my knees
One day is fine, next day is black
So if you want me off your back
Well come on and let me know
Should I stay or should I go?
Should I stay or should I go now?
Should I stay or should I go now?
If I go there will be trouble
An’ if I stay it will be double
So come on and let me know!
This indecision’s bugging me
Esta indecision me molesta
If you don’t want me, set me free
Si no me quieres, librame
Exactly who’m I’m supposed to be
Dime que tengo que ser
Don’t you know which clothes even fit me?
¿sabes que ropas me quedan?
Come on and let me know
Me tienes que decir
Should I cool it or should I blow?
¿me debo ir o quedarme?
Split!
Yo me enfrio o lo sufro
Should I stay or should I go now?
yo me enfrio o lo sufro
Should I stay or should I go now?
yo me enfrio o lo sufro
If I go there will be trouble
Si me voy - va a haber peligro
And if I stay it will be double
Si me quedo es doble
So you gotta let me know
Pero me tienes que decir
Should I cool it or should I go?
yo me enfrio o lo sufro
Should I stay or should I go now?
yo me enfrio o lo sufro
If I go there will be trouble
Si me voy - va a haber peligro
And if I stay it will be double
Si me quedo es doble
So you gotta let me know
Pero me tienes que decir
Should I stay or should I go?
It's an echo of "Should I stay or shoule I go?" From some lyrics that I heard the last time..... Mann what is going on? Is it a situation prolonged out of habit? A situation prolonged out of symphaty or a feeling of responsibility? Situation X was always talked of by Subject 1 as a shorterm program though why I do not know. Now perhaps Subject 1 wants to wrap up SItuation X after Situation Y looks possible to occur with Subject Unknown? Subject 2 has been affected by Situation X and has biased views to Situation X. Subject 2 kis comforatble in tested Situation 1. Th;e end of Situation 1 might have adverse effects on Subject 2. Experiment still on- going.
Oh yeeeeeaaaaah
Wooh!
Darling you got to let me know
Should I stay or should I go?
If you say that you are mine
I’ll be here ’til the end of time
So you got to let me know
Should I stay or should I go?
Always tease tease tease
You’re happy when I’m on my knees
One day is fine, next day is black
So if you want me off your back
Well come on and let me know
Should I stay or should I go?
Should I stay or should I go now?
Should I stay or should I go now?
If I go there will be trouble
An’ if I stay it will be double
So come on and let me know!
This indecision’s bugging me
Esta indecision me molesta
If you don’t want me, set me free
Si no me quieres, librame
Exactly who’m I’m supposed to be
Dime que tengo que ser
Don’t you know which clothes even fit me?
¿sabes que ropas me quedan?
Come on and let me know
Me tienes que decir
Should I cool it or should I blow?
¿me debo ir o quedarme?
Split!
Yo me enfrio o lo sufro
Should I stay or should I go now?
yo me enfrio o lo sufro
Should I stay or should I go now?
yo me enfrio o lo sufro
If I go there will be trouble
Si me voy - va a haber peligro
And if I stay it will be double
Si me quedo es doble
So you gotta let me know
Pero me tienes que decir
Should I cool it or should I go?
yo me enfrio o lo sufro
Should I stay or should I go now?
yo me enfrio o lo sufro
If I go there will be trouble
Si me voy - va a haber peligro
And if I stay it will be double
Si me quedo es doble
So you gotta let me know
Pero me tienes que decir
Should I stay or should I go?
It's an echo of "Should I stay or shoule I go?" From some lyrics that I heard the last time..... Mann what is going on? Is it a situation prolonged out of habit? A situation prolonged out of symphaty or a feeling of responsibility? Situation X was always talked of by Subject 1 as a shorterm program though why I do not know. Now perhaps Subject 1 wants to wrap up SItuation X after Situation Y looks possible to occur with Subject Unknown? Subject 2 has been affected by Situation X and has biased views to Situation X. Subject 2 kis comforatble in tested Situation 1. Th;e end of Situation 1 might have adverse effects on Subject 2. Experiment still on- going.
Sunday, 26 July 2009
new new new NEW!! =)
YAY I just got my ASUS U80v lappy and my Sony Ericsson T707 today at Funan IT mall!! =))) This is GREAT!!! going to get my free hard disk drive tmw hahahhahaa who wants to come? also today, I had turtle soup for the first time! SOme may say it's cruel and gross but hey it was just a try... =)) Today had the whole day with my parents and we didn't even quarrel once. THat's a first hahahah =)) Bought AJ's stuff too right after driving... had to rush for it. It should be worth it eh =))
Anyways we just had FOC (freshman orientation camp) and boy it sure was fun though the planning of the SP night was so not very good. Still my partner and I won the best SP for our Telly Match though truth be told we were probably the least romantic SP set in the whole of UOL LOL!! Oh wells. Had fun. Saw AJ at sentosa and all that haha...
Haven't talked much to him. Our nightly talks have kinda stopped since the camps. Oh well. Shan't complain. He has his stuff to do right? =)) Though turth be told I really do miss him.
Anyways we just had FOC (freshman orientation camp) and boy it sure was fun though the planning of the SP night was so not very good. Still my partner and I won the best SP for our Telly Match though truth be told we were probably the least romantic SP set in the whole of UOL LOL!! Oh wells. Had fun. Saw AJ at sentosa and all that haha...
Haven't talked much to him. Our nightly talks have kinda stopped since the camps. Oh well. Shan't complain. He has his stuff to do right? =)) Though turth be told I really do miss him.
Saturday, 25 July 2009
Compliments
You know what? I can't take compliments well. When people compliment me I become shy and don't know what to say. Today I found out why. I never get complimented much at home so in a way getting compliments are like alien to me? I saw today that everytime my dad opens his mouth, it is to say that I'm not good enough, haven't done this or that and even complains about my dressing and everything he can think of. It sucks. One day I shall complain about everything about him. See how he takes it.
Monday, 20 July 2009
Curbing my emotions
You know how I get PMS and like really emo and stuff... during these times my thoughts usually run amok and I start to be totally insecure. Ask Cal mann... I don't know how many time's I've cried to a friend over issues that I'm insecure about during those times.... haha But this time it's really different. True I still feel insecure but the weird thing is I'm not temperamental or anything. In fact I'm calm! =)) Baby calls it resigned but hey if you're resigned and it keeps you from wallowing in self-pity and fear, I say let everybody be resigned! Haha...
Had a talk with Baby last night. It turned out kinda heated. He doesn't like me to mention my negative thoughts I think. But I also think that it's because when I sorta tell it to him I sound like I'm complaining and there he is unable to help me. To a man, that is like a totally helpless situation and they usually get VERY frustrated about it. I'm trying to understand. I love him =)))
Also, something has been bothering my a teeny weeny bit lately. WeiYi told my if I can't imagine myself going on for a long time or even marrying the person, a relationship with the person is not worth it- then it'll just be dating and since it is so I should be able to go date like as many guys as I want LOL but there is also another view which Baby also has: we take things one step at a time. Using my own words, he said that if you don't expect too much you won't be disappointed or something to that extent you know. I guess. When we first started off, I could really imagine spending close to forever with him but when I found out that that was his stand, to take things one step at a time, I kinda conformed and accommodate and made my thinking like his. Why cause more friction with different views as to where the relationship is heading right? lol I've really changed. Honest to God I think if you asked my friends to analyse me now, they would find me very different. And like what I told Baby, the catalyst for the change is him. I guess love can do that to someone. Love can change a person, or make the person willing to change. =))
Today, Baby also told me that I should get used to him not sending me home, that he didn't do it all the time with Jane either and it should not be a habit. I guess each guy is different and I don't wanna compare him but.... you know..... sheesh.. lol. Oh and this is the first time I'm using Jane's name here. Wow I'm so impressed with myself. Usually I'm too scared of her and I shun the name like the plague but I guess the more you shun away from something, like saying "Voldermort", the worse things will get. I feared her, or should I say a memory of her. But now, I know AJ is with me and that's all that matters. =)) thus I cast away my fears and I will just ... Trust.. In him =)) Trust that he loves me, trust that he knows how much I love him and trust that he'll do the right things and avoid the wrong things. =)) That's what I have to do, give him trust =))I have tried to staunch the flow of negative thoughts: What if he cheats on me during FOC or when he stays at the hostel? What if he tires of me? What if what if what if.... If my life is ruled by 'what ifs', if this relationship is to carry the burden of all of these 'what ifs' then life won't be worth living and the relationship won't be worth having. As I see it, this relationship, along with my life means everything to me. And I'll do my very best for their survival. =))
~ Thinking of you every spare minute~
Had a talk with Baby last night. It turned out kinda heated. He doesn't like me to mention my negative thoughts I think. But I also think that it's because when I sorta tell it to him I sound like I'm complaining and there he is unable to help me. To a man, that is like a totally helpless situation and they usually get VERY frustrated about it. I'm trying to understand. I love him =)))
Also, something has been bothering my a teeny weeny bit lately. WeiYi told my if I can't imagine myself going on for a long time or even marrying the person, a relationship with the person is not worth it- then it'll just be dating and since it is so I should be able to go date like as many guys as I want LOL but there is also another view which Baby also has: we take things one step at a time. Using my own words, he said that if you don't expect too much you won't be disappointed or something to that extent you know. I guess. When we first started off, I could really imagine spending close to forever with him but when I found out that that was his stand, to take things one step at a time, I kinda conformed and accommodate and made my thinking like his. Why cause more friction with different views as to where the relationship is heading right? lol I've really changed. Honest to God I think if you asked my friends to analyse me now, they would find me very different. And like what I told Baby, the catalyst for the change is him. I guess love can do that to someone. Love can change a person, or make the person willing to change. =))
Today, Baby also told me that I should get used to him not sending me home, that he didn't do it all the time with Jane either and it should not be a habit. I guess each guy is different and I don't wanna compare him but.... you know..... sheesh.. lol. Oh and this is the first time I'm using Jane's name here. Wow I'm so impressed with myself. Usually I'm too scared of her and I shun the name like the plague but I guess the more you shun away from something, like saying "Voldermort", the worse things will get. I feared her, or should I say a memory of her. But now, I know AJ is with me and that's all that matters. =)) thus I cast away my fears and I will just ... Trust.. In him =)) Trust that he loves me, trust that he knows how much I love him and trust that he'll do the right things and avoid the wrong things. =)) That's what I have to do, give him trust =))I have tried to staunch the flow of negative thoughts: What if he cheats on me during FOC or when he stays at the hostel? What if he tires of me? What if what if what if.... If my life is ruled by 'what ifs', if this relationship is to carry the burden of all of these 'what ifs' then life won't be worth living and the relationship won't be worth having. As I see it, this relationship, along with my life means everything to me. And I'll do my very best for their survival. =))
~ Thinking of you every spare minute~
Thursday, 16 July 2009
Everyone's breaking up....
My good friend has broken up. It was a 5 year relationship and now it's gone... poof. This scares me. Last night, darling and I quarreled about my dressing- that I seldom dress up etc etc... fact is, I have chunky legs.... so when I wear dresses or skirts, I don't look good. PJ says I look good in jeans. Come on shouldn't people wear things that make them look good rather than follow what other people wear that make THEM look nice. I seriously don't know what to think. I know that he has lotsa beautiful girls who dress up around him. But hey, why should I feel bad and change for anything? I'm improving my style and I'll take it a step at a time at MY own pace. Thing is I love him haha so most of the things I do are usually more for him than for me.
~What else should I do. I Should just be myself.
~What else should I do. I Should just be myself.
Saturday, 11 July 2009
OG 19!! =))
Sorry I haven't been posting!!! Wait why should I be saying sorry? Not as if anyone is following my blog eh? haha no computer = sucky and secluded life!!! I so wanna get a new lappy!! hahhaa and dearest Jerrick will be helping me out in my choice!! hahhaha well alright we had the SIM UOL orientation day on the 7th of July. The theme is sucky but the people I met were NOT!!! They are a fun bunch!! hahaha going to meet them for dinner on monday after the Mah Jong session at Darling's place haha wheeees soooo looking forward to it. Will be looking forward to camp too thought the 'special partner' thingy is getting me a little :Hmmmmmmm uh... ooookaaaay... hahhahaha
Thursday, 2 July 2009
Jerrick! Transformers! Kim Gary!
Haha Met Jerrick yesterday at Vivo City lol. So like the 4 of us, Jian Ye, Jerrick, AJ and I went to Kim Gary to makan. Quite alright I guess hahahaha the food didn't start of well but it was fine =)) After that AJ and I left to watch Transformers Revenge of the Fallen. Woots it was cool. And Bumble Bee just became my fav hahaha yay!!! knock the faithless bitch out mann!! hahahaa this show tells you- Don't cheat on your girlfriend cos the girl you cheat with may be a transformer with a steel tongue hahahahaa Ahhhh Welllss hahaha life sucks today though.. and school's starting. God please give me something to look forward to hahaha =))
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