21KM

With the cough/flu and all that I managed to finish up the 21KM half marathon Sundown. Yep I did it with darling next to me all the way =)) Have to say a BIG thank you to darling for being there for me even though he could have done it much better with a better timing than if he stuck with me, walking and all that with PJ and Merv. Actually the only thing I regret doing is not holding his hand to the finish... He actually tried to hold my hand but I kinda was emberassed to do so given that our timing sucked plus the fact that we had a slight tiff plus I was really ashamed of our timing and I couldn't get pass the knowledge that I could have done better.... I promise that if there is a next time (and there probably will be) that we run again together... and probably everytime after that we'll hold hands and finish it ok? =)) I am my biggest barrier... why can't I not care when no one else cares... I doubt he was bothered that my timing sucked that much after all.... I'm really sorry darling...

Fair weathered friend?

My parents just told me their intention of sending me overseas after I have finished with the UOL thingy in SIM. Of course I thought, I don't want to go- I have a boyfriend in Singapore as well as friends spread out across the globe whom I don't get to meet often enough as it is. I was kinda sad. So, that happened during lunch and all (which coincidentally was right after I woke up). I didn't have my phone with me and when I did look at my phone after lunch I saw that He was done with tuition and tried to call me.

(Background: I woke up VERY late in the morning and when I checked my phone I saw that he had left messages and missed calls for me but seeing that he would most probably be in tuition I didn't want to disturb him and all so I didn't SMS him back- BAD move I'm afraid)

So I phoned him and the moment he picked up the phone I told him what the crisis was. Well the answer wasn't what I had expected. He asked if I'd tried to persuade my parents against it (like DUH of course I did) and I told him that I'd prefer it if I could take a teaching Dip in SG to going overseas (can't the man see that I do not want to further my studies, see the world and explore new horizons BECAUSE OF HIM??) I think I must have been too upset to think but his advices that followed didn't sink in at all and by that I mean I couldn't see much of a link in them. Anyone who knows me knows that I get HIGHLY frustrated when I do not understand something (those who cannot picture it can have an interview with my math homework who have witnessed such emotions on a regular basis). So I got frustrated: Here I am telling you the largest crisis of my life as yet and there you are giving advice albeit without much emotion?

There was one time when we were discussing if we did get married and one of us did have to go overseas would the other one follow and then the answer was a YES for both of us. But this didn't seem to be the case today. After saying a cold goodbye, I found out via SMS that he's being so was based on him being upset about me not replying his SMSes. Not that I want to bring up the past, but he did that to me before so what WAS THIS? He thought that I didn't care for him because I didn't SMS him first thing in the morning and my excuse for not doing so because he was giving tuition was TOTALLY INVALID because he would even message me when he was relief teaching in school. So that was the crux eh? So, when I get upset and a build up occurs when I don't tell him I'm upset about a particular thing it is wrong but HE can DO THAT? Wow....

And my SMSing him is such a good indicator that I love him compared to me calling him first thing I can to tell him the crisis that we WOULD be facing next time, because the crisis part doesn't show at all that he's a major part of my life and I feel that he should know about it because it's to do with our future? So I told him via SMS that I shouldn't have told him about it only to find out what was actually bothering him. Splendid. Apparently, my not SMSing him the instant I wake up takes precedence over my telling him the more important thing that's gonna happen?

It's true, I did hurt his feelings by saying that he's one of the most petty guys I've met and his answer did show that he was not petty at all- a nice and crisp "Thanks".

Worms in the toilet

Ok yesterday I totally freaked myself out because like there were like worms around the sink. Got a cleaning agent andwter and totally flushed them away hahaha eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeew