The dog

A little dog at the pound thought it has found a new home. The new owner was terrific. He fawned upon the dog, gave the dog lots of love and attention. This owner, after having severed his previous commitments of some form or another was willing to have something to pass his time with and so he got the dog. He gave the dog treats, being patient with the dog and the dog in turn learned o be loyal to this new owner, sitting and waiting for the owner, pining for him when he leaves the house and always waiting should he happen to come home to talk or pat it. The dog gave the owner it's all, it's unconditional love, it's time, it's efforts. The owner took the dog out often and the dog soon knew who were the owner's friends and enemies. It soon became quite a common fixture at meetings amongst the owner and his friends and the dog was very happy to be in the owner's life.


But like all humans, the owner soon started to tire of that which he had "loved" so much in the beginning. Soon, he was out of the house very often and the dog hardly saw enough of him. He got more commitments and grew busier, however the dog still saw him, albeit it was always a hurried or passing attentiveness and even this soon became somewhat like a chore to the owner. One day the dog grew very sick. The owner seemed to have seen this as a wake up call and started to be very nice to the dog. The dog saw this change as rather weird and suspicious but it liked the change nonetheless, thinking the owner was finally finding time for it again. Weeks passed and the dog went for check ups with the vet until one day, it was declared as out of harms way. The dog was overjoyed, yet frightened that the owner will soon go back to his prior commitments and leave the dog behind again. For the next few days, the dog lived in fear, but nothing bad happened. But one afternoon, the dog was placed in a cage by the owner and was brought to the pound. It was thrown in with the rest of the dogs as it begged its owner with its eyes to take it back, all to no avail; the owner left. The dog knew that the owner would never come back and its heart dimmed and the flame it carried for the owner extinguished.


It was not too long later that another man came by the pound, chanced upon the dog and decided to adopt it. This man was different. He gave all his time in the world to this dog. He too had left behind some prior commitment and had time to spare as well as lots of love to give to his new companion. The dog was happy as the new owner reminded it daily, "I won't be like your last owner". The dog was always well taken cared of and the owner never failed to be there for the dog everyday. The dog felt like it meant the world to this new owner and in turn, this new owner now meant the world to this dog. However, one day the new owner took up a new job. The new owner was not like the first who left the dog on its own after his new commitment. This new owner still made time for the dog, bringing it out to play as well as giving it treats often. The new owner was the dog's world and the dog tried its best to love the new owner. But as the days went by, the new owner got busier and busier. The way he treated and talked to the dog seemed to have changed, even if it was a tiny bit. Was the dog being too paranoid? The dog got scared. Was it all happening again?

What do you think happens next?

Finally I said goodbye to my past... albeit even if I didn't know it was still somewhat here. I always thought- Hmmmm is God playing a big joke?? WHY is it that my r/s seems to be a replay of everything that happened but now I'm the bad guy??? Things kept happening again and again with striking similarities to the past and yes I must finally admit it did get to me. But today, I chose the path that wasn't chosen in the last r/s. I DEVIATED... (did I spell that right?)... I was on that path to self destruction when suddenly it hit me like someone threw a rock at me and yelled WAKE THE@#$^&@#$%^&@#$%^ UP!!! I realised that this was it. And I chose the path- the path that would mean the end to all similarities to the last r/s because will whatever fate that was still left behind has been all used up and is now gone. Chinese (or was it the Japanese) believe that when someone enters your life, they leave something behind because you are fated to meet and will thus have an unbreakable link forever.... UNLESS your fate is 'used up' so to speak. I guess it's God's way of telling me "Girl this is it. You wanna really end your fate with that guy I'm gonna put you through the hard route but if you do make it you'll come out victorious and free" and so I did. I made that choice, one that I know I will never regret. =)) I'm happy. I'm free. I wanna SING RUN JUMP SCREAM hahahaa.... But most importantly, I wanna now really truely give my all and build a better life for my darling and I. Goodbye old Mel hello Mel Tong haha =))

We do have our differences.... sometimes, I feel like things won't work out.... but then we make it all better. You never give up on me and are always trying. Sometimes I feel that I'm not good enough for you. At other times I feel you deserve someone better. Then there are some times when I am ready to tear the head off any girl who tries to take you away. You DO know that I can't live without you right? I don't want to hurt you and that'll be the last thing that I do but sometimes I DO hurt you. The anger, the pain, it really all stems from inside me and it leaves me unable to think or hope anymore. And then you give me hope again... I'm so happy to have you darling. Really =)) May we always be together =))

The Red Wave- A Blessing and A Pain....

URGH today when I met darling I was in a foul mood. Foul foul I say... URGHit hurt like hell and I was so irritated!!!! Couldn't gym and on the way back I even had to sit down awhile because the pain was too unbearable... When we got home, Ashy was barking like a.... well... like a mad dog and I shouted at him to shut up and this sparked my mum to scold me. Man we had a shout out session with Jerome right there... Well it is true, I should learn to control my anger but I could bearly stand and my face had a permanent grimace of pain.... another few minutes of that and my face might remain that way for as long as the Sun rises from the East and sets in the West... YIKES!!! Well after that I was crying like some... I don't know, faucet gone wrong and Darling was just holding me. Things might have been so different without him. I might have just crawled into bed and curled up and die. But there he was soothing and comforting me even though my nose was totally blocked and I was leaking mucus.... yes gross I know... In the end when things got much better (as they always do when Jerome darling is around), I decided to apologise to my mother whomI wanted dead a few minutes ago. Darling is such a... well... a darling!! Hahaha he's the peacemaker here haha. So ya... it's true la I shouldn't make it a habit such that I go back and scream at my hubby next time right? Hmmmm for Darling's sake, I WILL CHANGE!!!! (darling gimme time and wait for me ok? =)))


So we didn't gym. We used the laptop for awhile and then we went for dinner at West Mall. The simple pleasures in life- cheap and nice food haha... Darling is right, a simple meal tastes so much better when you have your loved one around to feed you =)) We later went to the value dollar store and got chocolates >.< and shampoo for me and socks for him hahahahaha and then we came back just in time to bring Ashy for a run and then catch WuFu Dao with my mother =))


Yeah I seemed to chase him outta the house after that I know but that was because of the crippling pain that bloomed in my stomach... Man I wanted to bend down and hug myself and that's what I did on the pretext of holding Ashy... Hmmmm I'm really really sorry Darling it just felt so bad la... =(( I really mis Darling now... wish he didn't have to go. Don't know what I'd do without him. If he had left before sending me home when I was in that mood.... things might be so so different... in a bad way. I'm so glad I have you darling. I want to be with you always =))

<3 Mel

Durian Mousse and Black forest Mousse =))

Today darling picked me up from tuition hahax and then we travelled aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllllll the way to beauty world area where we walked up and down initially wanting to have teochew porridge but changed to ramen because this very picky emperess dowager stopped craving for porridge haha.... darling is going to be very busy when I'm pregnant next time hahahaha he'll have to satisf aaaaaallll my cravings haha =)) muacks. Hmmmmm full full after my dumpling ramen and darling's crispy chicken ramen =)) hmmm the food there is not bad and the service is nice and the steamboat is a nice place for gatherings so note to self, next time can come here with friends =))Had durian and black forest mousses too heehee ok la I think I can learn to slowly like my once-favourite food again haha.... don't know what happened to make me dislike it's aroma LOL

Today I planned my timetable for my studies before the biggie in May and I realised I no longer have the luxury of time. May God give me the strength and perserverence to go on and do well in my exams and I promise I'll go to church with Darling.... really. Hmmm darling is being very VERY understanding and ya we both have to work hard, he in his driving and me in my exams =)) then maybe after that when he is free or when he doesn't have his early modules we can go on HOLIDAYYYYY =)) Love being with him!!

And guess what, today........ NEVER ARGUE!!!! NEVER GET UNHAPPY!!!! In fact today was the first time darling saw my laugh until cannot move side hahahaha both of us were like drunk people walking home: he hiccuping nonstop, and me laughing and almost falling over nonstop hahahaha I haven't laughed like that in a long time.... hmmmmm would he think this girl is too crazy liao?? Hmmmmm worry worry..... But I really had a good time..... This is the beginning of a great beginning hahaaa.... like I said we eem to be working back wards from quarrels to lovey dovey even more hahaha unlik other couples. Think for once, I'm sure, we will be together for a very very long and happy time bordering on forever =))

Love you darling =)) xoxo

5th Monthsary

Yesterday was our 5th month =)) Hmmmm for some reason I woke up in the morning and told darling I wanted to eat Huo Guo haha so the original plan was to go for it at Suntec like what we did the last time. But in the end we went to have Kenny Rogers (ribs, wings and sides along with their corn muffin and two snapples his peach tea, mine pink leomonade). Giant Baby Yoshi sat opposite us haha.... Yupp darling got me the Giant Baby Yoshi I wanted wheeees =))got lots of gushes about the Yoshi haha while we walked around =)) Actually, the day threatened to be a bad one... walking out of his place we got into a squabble which left me saying "We'll never be happy" and after that he thought that meant I didn't see us being happy anymore when it meant that it was actually my problem and all.... sad sad angry angry cry cry BUT THEN well we patched it up. He told me not to keep looking for that One day where we are fully happy but keep up at being happy. I guess that's much silpler and do-able haha... I feel really happy when I'm with him. I'm really trying to curb my temper because I don't want to ruin the happiness he gives me with my bad temper. I promise this quarrels will get lesser and lesser. In a way we're doing it backwards compared to other couples hahaha for others they are more lovey dovey at first then the quarrels start and they break up. For us is the total opposite! Hmmmm perhaps this is the ingredient for a long loooong relationship and yes people I DO mean the big M! haha I won't name our son Yoshi haha but yupp.. =)) wheeees <3

To Dearest PJ

Haha thanks so much for your support babe =)) Hmmmm it's true, we took so long to get together. A saying comes to mind- "What's yours will be yours" hahahhaha YAY =)) the epitome of the word "FATED" hahahahaa.... I WILL treasure him hahah Don't box him hor heehee =)) Wishing you and Merv Man All the best!! =))