Start Loving Yourself

"You know you truely love yourself when you find that Break Outs hurt you more than Break Ups" - Me

Yep I sincerely believe in what I said above. When you have a break out and you flip because you love yourself and you do not want to be in that state where your beauty is being demolished by pimples, it shows that you care about yourself. When you break up and you cry and mop around it's because you feel like you've lost someone. WHO THE HELL DOES THIS SOMEONE THINK HE OR SHE IS?? Why do you have to cry over them??

It's fine for you to cry over your beauty, girl! Because YOU are important. So love yourself because there ain't anyone more important than you! So dry them tears for that no-good-son-of-a-bitch who screwed you up and save them tears for emergencies involving you!

Protecting yourself: The Wall

It's a shame how so many of us get taken in by fakeness... When I see what I see now, I feel pity for the people taken in by the false front; I am also amused though, which is weird for I should be feeling upset? Haha, I guess I've really proven my point, gone were the days where I will feel sad or torment myself with "what-ifs" and memories.

I always like to say "to each his own". I am happy that I am moving forward and actually learning (yes I am still capable at learning at past 20) LOL. I see that people who hide themselves very well can put on a mask very well because they have made themselves into a blank wall with which no one can figure out. It is thus very easy for them to draw out whatever they want people to see and as people do not know of the meaning of the blank wall, they take the newly decorated wall as the actual image of the person.
A smart technique; I have to give them that.

However, once you knock down the wall everything becomes much clearer. You see that behind the wall is a room and it is in this clutter or emptiness that is the person's true self. Once you knock down the wall, and you know how everything was actually an illusion, a distraction, you can never bring the wall back up again. It will be hard to trust that particular person again because you will forever be on your guard.

The worst thing is when you already know about the mask, and know that you should be on guard, yet, you let your guard slip as you admire the graffiti on the wall and soon you get taken in by it. The only way out is to finally see that it is a wall again. Then you can get out of it.

I pity those who have the come up against such walls, but I am proud of those who have seen through them. Yet I seek to learn the technique to build such walls as they may come in handy. After all, the other extreme, the open book, will make us suffer more hurt than if we were to have a wall.

Honestly?

I find no need to share my feelings and thoughts with someone who doesn't share theirs with me. Why keep asking all the questions and I have to keep answering them? I refuse. And if the friendship turns sour, they only have themselves to blame. May God bless them that one day they will know why majority of the world don't like them.

Did you really think I was that weak?

I did. In fact I never knew I was this strong. It was only after talking to a good friend that I realised what the situation was in front of me. I was out to prove something to myself. And it was a bonus that the process was rather enjoyable too. All this time I was actually giving myself an illusion because I was so used to a specific sort of situation. In the end I realise that I put myself in that position for a mission. I was like a spy who had lost his identity and memory during the mission and was totally drawn into it and suddenly, I remembered what I started out to do. I woke up. And waking up never felt so good because it was like a spark and suddenly the mission was complete. It was that easy. I've said this before, I work with triggers; and today I found my trigger and the bullet just exploded from the barrel. I am thankful for this mission though, learned a lot, and I mean a lot be it physically or emotionally.

Mission Complete; Pack up.

:)

I honestly think I'm kinda blessed. Hahahaha.... When you are in situations whereby each time round, it gets better and better, well, you should be real happy. Ofcourse when you hit the best and then the next plummets to be below average you kinda get sad hahahaa..

Right now... all I got to focus on about this is not to fall in love. Shouldn't be a problem.... right?....

Today

Well... today... I took a gamble =))

April Fool's day

Hahaha... oh Cadeo~ LOL My first victim!!! Haven't done a prank in forever!!! Actually I've not done it before at all!! LOL